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Heya Darlingzzs

wow agh i really need to vent... i realize i haven't wrote in a while but things have just been so hectic and i just don't know where to start! lol i guess maybe i should start with the beginning... i got a dog! lol okay now before you go "AWWW" and everything let me clarify... *ahem* i got a GROSS dog lol he had mange like crazy and he was a rescue i guess dad just felt sorry for him and brought him home... oh well his name is cannon and he's getting better i'm not sure if i like him or not but thats that... well okay i had all my midterms... i thought i did bad on most of em but in fact i got a B on my biology and an A on my spanish 2 i'm not sure about english or algebra but english might not even be taken as a grade.. we had block scheduling for the tests this year it was kinda cool it made the day go by so much faster but unlike all of the other schools in the SVC we didn't get the last 2 days off to cool URG oh well what can we do? speaking of the SVC our basketball team is actually doing rather well we are tied for first place with Adena... we beat them once so i don't see why we won't again we just have to keep our streak going... the reserve n freshmen however aren't doing so hot.. but then thats not what everyone goes to the game to watch... (this entry is going to be everywhere just because i'm not sure what order everything goes in) lol softball started last week... it was pretty nice i have been going to all the open gyms and man i have been sore lol in cheerleading we don't really do anything like running or working our muscles we just stretch and exert other ways... idk but the first day we got there we had to run for 10 MINTUES lol not 10 laps not 10 walls 10 MINUTES agh it was terrible but i survived.. it kinda made me rethink my brihgt idea of running cross country next year... LOL but i have deffinately missed softball... me n my dad got into it over softball he thinks i just go down to the school to flirt and meet guys and i don't actually try... that really hurt me cuz i really DO try idk things have just been hitting me hard these days, and then i have been looking at colleges... life comes at you fast, idk what i'm gonna do i mean all of my life i have wanted to go to a school far away from ohio but now that it seems like its just right around the corner i just don't know... i mean i still dont' know about going to one in ohio but it deffinately doesn't seem like it would be as bad as i always thought it was, i wouldn't mind going to OSU like murray but i have also been looking at some colleges in Pennsylvania because i do wanna be away from home and be able to prove to myself that i CAN take care of myself and PA. would allow me to do that but i wouldn't be so far away that i couldn't just hop in the car and drive home... but i mean i do have 2 years to think about it i have just been getting all these letters and magazines from colleges and it jsut makes me think...but anyway back to my life story, last friday was the last day of the semmester boy i can't wait until summer... lol in may i'm going to Disney world and then the day i come home i'm going to the Fall Out boy concert... Hawthorne Heights and All American Rejects are touring too! i'm so excited like the ENTIRE soph. class is going! and guess what! i turn 16 in like 2 weeks... that stresses me out as well because we don't even have my liscence test scheduled and my party spot hasn't even been booked... i'll be glad when everyone stops obsessing over it all but bad things are also going on with the turn of the semmester.. my sem. schedule is all screwed up cuz they have me in art instead of Video Journ. and in OGT writing instead of Study Hall... it kills me so tomorrow i have to go argue left n right with the guidance counselor just so i can get into the classes that i wanna be in! and then of course my whole love relationship ordeal has me doing backflips and getting sea sick i just wish everyone would leave me alone about the whole thing i mean everyone wants oen thing for me n then when i do it i get chewed out about it and coached to do something else i mean i stayed single for how long? from October until January and no one but one person seemed interested in me and then all of a sudden after everyone finds out its like "oh by the way everyone you have ever liked is in love with you they just won't touch u now with a ten foot pole" i just wanna scream i mean AGH i just wish i would have known all of this i mean it was no secret i had a thing for murray or Adam but all of a sudden they always liked me and i was just blind? come on I DON'T THINK SO... agh w/e i'm done with that subject of conversation me n kate are both having problems in that area so me n her decided to take a break n the both of us went on a hot date together to cool off.. we went out to eat and then to the movies... we saw Tristan and Isolde. it was a really good movie... then last night was just a bunch of fun NOT... okay to start with let me give you the whole story our Softball coach came to me n kate n asked us if we could work the coat check at the game saturday (yesterday) i said yes but kate wanted to watch Dante jackson (if u don't know who he is he plays for McClain and is crazy awesome i mean he WILL go pro) well kate asked ashley if she could work since she didn't work last year and didnt sign up last year and ashley got mouthy and said no so kate was ticked all week and when ashley talked to me she told me that she didn't want to work because varsity gets all the profit (which isn't true) and they should ahve to work... well KaSondra ( who almost didn't make it to the game because she lost her uniform, its okay she found it she left it on the bus thurday) volunterred to go half the game so to make it fiar i offered that me n KaSondra watch the check half the game n then ashley n kate well they weren't haveing any of it so i told them they were acting like babies and needed to grow up or not paly softball lol so they prolly aren't too happy with me but me n KaSondra watched the check and that ordeal ended... OH and one of my friedns from first grade is back in town...i haven't seen him but i hear he is back..tyler nollar... he moved to SC a long time ago but i hear he is back so i'll prolly try to get ahold of him eventually lol when everything cools down and starts making sense once more. hmm idk what else has been going on? Brandy is ill cuz Kristina got her sick LOL so i wrote her a get well card on a ticket from the game last night whcih might i tell you was PACKED lol ppl had to start parking in the front of the school and the split the pot ran out of tickets before halftime of the varsity game lol it was CRAZY!!!! we had ppl from all over at SE to watch that Dante play...he's just THAT good... the cheerleaders did their dance lol we rocked might i add.. we have been doing all kinds of cool stuff lately but i dont' trust them they have been trying to fly me and i just shake so much i'm so afraid to fly since my accident cuz i see how those girls drop ppl like its no big deal! so idk if i even wanna cheer next year... at least not for the school though knowing me i'll prolly try out again just so i don't ruin it i want the honors... lol but we are going away for camp next year and talkign about getting white uniforms and starting a weightlifting program it should be good but i guess i haven't decided yet... i wanna get into gymnastics over the summer since i'll have my license but who knows... i think i've said all i needed to say i think i'm pretty well vent...kinda so i'm gonna go get ready for softball and get my algebra done and get back to my never ending no-break life

"do you feel alone right now?"

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Hola Fellow Partiers,

yeah lets get this party started... so i can end it just as fast lol i know i know i have heard this lecture before i have been neglecting you and paying way tooo much attention to myspace but hon that so isn't true i would never cheat on you! i love you! okay yeah well blah its over.. no just kidding i know i'm all over the place today but its been that kinda life lately what more could i possibly ask for? lol i get nagged at by my best friends girlfriend cuz apparently i'm looking to get into his pants? lol is it honestly MY fault that he didn't tell her? i mean come on grow up become secure we're friends lol her freshman friend actually contacted me to let me know that i shouldn't answer my phone when he calls, ha come on? that scares me? w/e well then the girlfriend contacts me on yahoo and i'm like "grow up" lol i don't wanna fight but heck ya know she can hit me i'll show her WHERE to hit me lol one more hit to this nose and its plastic surgeory city baby lol oh well anywho thats a long story christmas break has been WONDERFUL lol i do love christmas i love the entire mood but it seems no one wants me to be happy and i have to fight for just that right... well i had been sick off and on and had been home a lot because of the flu but i made it to the last day of school and this senior in student council flirts with me like he always does but lets face it i have a crush on him so i flirt with him lol but thats not the story i wanna tell the story i'm gonna tell ya is of the day.. i had to go in my choir shirt put on my Student Council shirt to be announced by the president (AKA senior flirt) and then when we were announced (soph.) no one clapped yeah that was sad but hey we aren't a very popular class soooo then i got and put on my show choir shirt to sing and dance then back into the student council shirt for the rest of the day lol through all the student faculty games and delivering candy canes and then after lunch i stayed in mrs. grooms' room and watched nightmare before christmas until i had to go decorate for the dance that would be that night... well we decorated and of course mr. senior had to flirt lol *Dreamy sigh* okay well then we went back to playing monopoly with brandy and cody, and courtney and alex well then i went home and got dressed and all that jazz to get ready for the dance... lol mom and dad were watching "deal or no deal" which is now one of my absolute fav. shows well we were watching that and i got a call to start my driving for drivers ed since we have to have 8 hrs of it and i really wanted to get mine done for drivers ed and besides linsey (my cheer advisor) said that we weren't gonna have practice so ya know what better time lol dad had a fit though cuz ya know over protected father doens't want a man picking me up and driving me idk lol it was rather retarded but anywho we got into that show and were a little late picking up my sis from her dance and when we picked her up i was dropped off to help set everything up bud went to the dance and me n him danced and i danced some with the senior lol all in all it was a lot of fun courtney brought clark and kate had chase and i believe she had a lot of fun = ) it was really great well i went home to start my christmas vacation and on the answering machine there is a message from lindsey saying that there is practice the next morning (when i had driving scheduled) but she told me it was cool and she wasn't going and i told her i would see her that friday before the game at golden corral because we were gonna all exchange gifts well i drove and that was pretty cool and i went to spend time with gramma (i had already been to lancaster and to my aunts before another game) well then i went to the golden corral with the girls and we all had a good time amber is my secret sister mercedies wasn't there for me to give her the gift i got her so then we all went to lindsay's and chilled she did our hair and we went to the game which was really far away at eastern brown!!! it was pretty crazy real far away we cheered our hearts out and almost won i spent the varisty game talking to a few reserve players brownie and todd... then i came home and the next day christmas eve went to grammas for christmas and i got a traffic cone! lol it was sweet i don't wanna talk about christmas really it was a lot of fun but i don't wanna boast about the stuff i got cuz i know there are ppl out there who don't get anything for christmas and i don't wanna be selfish well the 26th i drove and i was made aware of another practice that i had to miss cuz i had to drive well kate stayed the night with me that day and then yesterday ashley calls me to inform me that i had to sit out a game ugh so mom calls everyone cuz she is my hero and figurese verythign out for me they were gonna make me sit out for missing all the practice but i dont' even have a demerit so now i have one for missing so much and the game tomorrow should be rather interesting considering i went against the coach but she isn't my coach! urg idk i don't  care i'm just gonna go to the game granted i don't know the dance and i'm gonna hold my head high and just deal with it... oh yeah and yesterday me n shayne jason and pottsey all went n saw king kong it was a pretty good movie but i didn't know that he died in the end! urg lol that made me sad hmm okay well today it has been raining like crazy! lol not snow but its rain urg it always rains when the day is bad! hmph  well its not all bad it's my sisters brithday happy brithday to her... hmm i think thats all that happened today and other than that some things it was a rather good christmas and a good break i might go to jackson for new years and i have to work with kristina friday cuz we have an algebra project due i have to rsvp to a siminar on the 3rd i hope i dont' miss that game cuz then i'll be in more hot water with the coaches but i won't be in school that day so who knows lol i have a lot to do and such little time to get it done in i'd also like to get to work on my englsih paper and get my notecards done but idk lol i'm just living day today sorry i haven't updated in so long but i'm trying u have to give me that lol i love you all and until next time stay tuned to the "shattered hopes and dreams of americas teens"

"Do you feel alone right now?"

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Hey bufondas y estufas

yeah thats right u have no idea what it says but i bet your insulted LOL actually since this has been a really late entry but ya know i've been busy i have a life lol but anywho yeah aren't those the most ghetto spanish words? ha anywho how they came about? we were sitting in spanish and brandy is hispanic so of course her little brother has childrens books in spanish so she brought one in to read to the class..i gotta admit it was pretty nifty but kate n everyone was sitting there and reading it and she found those words... scarves and stoves anywho i thought they were ghetto well lets see what's been going on mom switched my pills and i woke up not feeling well but i went to school  anyway... so i get on the bus and amber has this box of a bunch of coins for the penny drive since we didn't have any school friday the penny drive was going on monday... well i guess they had five boxes of pennys worth $25 and they went around asking for money for the red cross (since thats what the money goes for) and they got a $25 check to go agianst the freshman and hannahs dad wrote  a $200 check to go agianst the seniors lol well it was pretty crazy...well 3rd period i thought i was going to be sick so i went to the nurse and my sister was down there? lol she was going home cuz she wasn't haveing a good day so w/e the nurse said she wanted to send me home but i said no since i had practice and that wouldn't be good.... well 4th period rolls around and i'm not feeling well and by lunch i was ready to get SICK from all the smells i couldn't stand it so i went to the office n called gramma she came n got me n took me home so i could rest and i started to feel well and it was my last day so i went to drivers ed... took my test scored a 100% lol THATS RIGHT so now i have to do my driving time and oila (sp) okay well so sunday night guess who i get a call from? Justin Miller! haven't heard from him in forever so we talked for a long time and i told him a bout my game at Zane Trace on tuesday and he said he'd be there but he has a girlfriend... well anyway of course at the game i didnt' find him but well freshman lost and so did the reserve... halftime of the reserve game we decide that we are all gonna have a big group descussion which of couse got heated and it was so bad ppl were yellin and it was just a bunch of drama! of coures more drama! oh well so reserve leaves in the middle of it and its already almost the end of the 3rd quarter well after all that jazz i get dressed and call miller to find out he isn't gonna make it so i spent my time with bud and i talked some to staci... she's pretty sweet i don't really know her but yeah.. well we had a pretty good time but earlier that day todd was all like "baylee u should give me a good luck kiss" so i go "okay todd i'll give u one after school u come and remind me" well he didn't remind me but jesse did come up and goes "baylee where's my good luck kiss" so i go "well jesse i promised one to todd and i can only give out one per game" so he gets mad at leaves and as i said todd didn't come find me so me n ashley just pigged out at the game cuz of course we are like that mom came n got me n then next day in english todd goes "baylee i want my kiss" n i go "i only give them on game days" n he dropped it but later that day we were walking out cuz we didn't have cheer prac and they are walking out behind me (todd and jesse) and they go "we need a kiss for practice" and i go "i only give them for games" so everyone stops talkign and jesse looks at me n goes " I CALL FRIDAY" lol it was kinda funny we had a bake sale that day as well and all together if we would have had $10.57 more we would have made $2000 for charity i thought we did pretty good! well i have an organized biology debate on friday so i finished that assignment that night and went to bed oh by the way i did find out what was going on with miller i guess his girlfriend heard the message i left him and got mad so he was in trouble and they were fighting yeah it wasn't good plus he is sick so who knows!?! well okay now for today nothing really happened i got my show choir shirt that we are going to wear tuesday when we perform for the school and i have an algebra test tomorrow that i'll prolly fail!!!! i'm helping stefan with a 12 days of christmas video oh and i anchored the other day for announcements that was kinda cool.... my friends have been on their creative side this week lol i guess courtney told her boyfriend that she speaks good spanish so he told his spanish teacher and i guess his spanish teacher wants to meet her so my reaction was "oh things are getting serious court...he's taking u home to the spanish teacher!!!" lol everyone laughed well then yesterday kate let chase take home her scarf cuz he took it and i go "kate things are getting serious with you guys too! ur letting him take Bufonda home..sheesh next u know u'll be meeting the spanish teacher and getting married!" lol okay well anywho back to today i got home and fought with my brother (ugh i hate kids) well i got things titied up and got all dressed up for my wizard of oz auditions (i tried for dorothy) well i think i did okay i got it done and drove home me n my mom had a little spat over christmas and well here i am not much to report but i had some time so i figured "why not" lol life is funny...wow mom siad we might get another kitty! i was muy excited but when she called they said it might have a disease and i don't want my baby to get sick! agh so idk we already named him...he is a white siameze and we decided to name him "Melvin agustus winthorp V." cuz my cat is named "Regionald Winthorp III"  hmmm anyways.....this has been an emotional week for me with the dance coming up...there isn't really anyone i like that i know likes me back and i just feel kinda lonely right now everyone seems to pair off at this time of the year and i just don't know = (  i don't know what i'm feeling right now but it deffinately isn't good i'm lonely and i miss being with someone and having a good time agh! i hate this esp now! and ya know wow to make matters worse it hasn't been snowing..not the nice wonderful hopeful snow i thought for sure was coming but... its been raining...the sky is crying and i feel like i could cry with it, it just makes me feel so down and out this isn't the right kinda rain that spring has to make you joyful and feel alive its the slow cold crazy kind that just doesn't stop and leaves no hope= ( agh well okay i think i'm gonna go i'm depressing myself if they post the call backs or the results i'll let ya know ASAP love ya all

"Do you feel alone right now?"

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Hey Darlings,

wow this weekend hasn't really been all that bad... but boy am i worn out the best thing happened Thursday night... we got the news that friday was a SNOW DAY oh yeah! that rocked so much lol i deffinately was so happy so i let everyone know who all got out and basically everyone in ross county, pike, and vinton were all out so we all stayed up on the internet and i decided to work on my myspace since it seriously needed some updating...don't worry i linked the blog to this page so everyone knows that the serious blogging goes on right here at my xanga but to be fair i'll give you guys the link to my myspace since it ROCKS now lol click here okay anywho on with my life story.. i stayed up all night redoing that monstrasity and i got so lost cuz i had no idea what i was doing so nathanael helped me out n me n him talked for a while and i went to bed...slept in which felt so good cuz i haven't gotten the chance to sleep past 8 for the last 3 weeks... well i woke up and started getting ready for my game that we had home against Huntington... i got to the game and we all were really nervous cuz we hadn't done our "hello cheer" or "run threw" cheer in front of ppl well we got it over with and it went pretty well..yeah i screwed up but hey thats life... but ya know of course since its cheerleading we had drama cuz Huntington didn't have any Freshman cheerleaders so we asked the AD if we had to cheer and he basically beat around the bush and what i got from it was "no" so we practiced and didn't cheer until the 4th quarter when he told our coach that indeed we DID have to cheer urg i was so angry but our coach handeled it well agh well we got threw the games n lost of course... mommy came n got me after doing the varsity hello and run threw with them and i went home to continue the updation on myspace cuz i really didn't want to stay for the varisty game cuz i really hate basketball so i came home n talked to kate n figured out all the drama that i missed on thursday BTW brandy i'm so sorry to hear about all that but u did the right thing girl I LOVE YOU... okay well i went to bed late again but woke up early on saturday because i had drivers ed...we got to go to the jail then...it was pretty crazy it reminded me of silence of the lambs... kinda creepy or the zoo cuz kids were lookin in the cells going "theres one over there and 2 more over there" lol just kinda reminded me of the zoo... we got a pretty thourough tour of that crazy place and when we were done we went back to the class and she gave us all the answers for the test we will take on monday i'm kinda nervous about that well my mom had been spending time at my aunts waiting for class to be over and we had a christmas party to go to that night but of course i had to go to my game so mom took me over there early to see everyone and get my gifts... so i visited everyone and then mom took shayne home we went home so i could start geting ready for my game that we had at home against Vinton Co. we got there and warmed up and decided we would do our hello cheer during the reserve game...the cheerleaders and their coach were all really nice the freshman game was really close but in the end we lost both the reserve and freshmen games...and once again since its cheerleading there was drama... i guess the varisty was saying stuff about us because we didn't want to do the starting 5 with them but ya know we aren't even supposed to do the hello cheer or run threw with them...we are just nice lol i'd like to see what they would do if we just decided not to well our coach told us to do it for her and then we would all have a talk and we would have our say URG well w/e i really don't care we did all that bull crap n me n dad left and i came home to once again update this myspace..i had plans to go to the movies today wiht mike way but i remembered i have an algebra rough draft due on monday so i canceled and called Kristina to ask when she wanted me over there but she told me she had it done so i just got the day off..i was so happy i went to bed late last night and woke up late this morning i have laid around the house all day in my sweats watching movies and having the best day of my life LOL its sad but its true i never get a day off tomorrow starts my hectic schedule back up i have practice drivers ed then a game on tuesday against Zane trace and i also have quiz bowl practice then i get wednesday off (maybe) and thursday i have to try out for the musical and present my spanish project then friday i have another game and i think thats agianst unioto and saturday i think i'm going with mike to the movies then who knows on sunday lol i take this pretty much one day at a time..hmm oh and i took off the chatterbox cuz it keeps screwing up and dumb ppl like to make rude comments and i just can't deal with it so yeah i think thats all u need to know... oh wait no it isn't guess what?!?! KATE IS DATING CHASE agh i swear all my friends are really starting to get to me at least most of them...shayne hurt me by not telling me he was dating crystal and then kate goes and does this and doesn't even let me know she has these feelings for the guy not to mention he does all sorts of bad things and i don't wnat her to get hurt...plus its almost christmas and i really don't wanna be alone for that...bud has asked me out but i keep turning him down thinking maybe there is someone out there ya know knew and worth the time but it doesn't seem to be happening i like quite a few ppl but i just don't know urg my life is so complicating right now then kate tells me that pottsey likes me and that scares me cuz he is a sweetheart but we are just really good friends i turned logan down for that and i think me n him have grown away from eachother (however he did call wanting me to go to the fish with him last night but i didn't want to) and i just don't want that to happen with me n pottsey besides wouldn't that make me a hypocrit (sp) if i did indeed date pottsey? n then i have these feelings for murray and agh i just need to settle down lol i miss not being in a relationship i haven't been since Oct. 5th...okay now i just sound pathetic.. i need to stop but *sigh* idk then today pottsey told me that he got drunk last night and that just really ticked me off it seems like my friends just wanna leave me or lose me right now and most are growing away from me i mean i can handle that cuz i'm an independent person but it makes for a very lonely life don't ya think? man i'm reading too much into this crap maybe i'm just in a depressed mood = ( i don't like being single but theres no one i really wanna be in a relationship with at the moment so i guess i'm at a loss... i think i'm gonna go read or do some of my govt. love ya all tootles

"do you feel alone right now?"

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Heya Lovers,

wow lol yeah my internet has been really crazy these days but i didn't go to school today and it decided it was gonna work so i thought i would give my loyal readers a shout out lest they forget me... okay well i don't remember what all i have told you so this entry is going to be really random and just spontaniously wrote so here it goes...the last time i left you i told you about the RENT plans we made right? well okay we went and guess what it did...IT DIED and was a HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT so we got free passes to come back n see it agh it was so terrible it died in the first song lol and then we went to see Just Friends and that movie really wasn't that bad looking back but since courtney was making out wiht some random guy she invited like right beside me n kate and since i was so upset about rent at the time the movie sucked lol but its not so bad lookin back...okay well then last weekend we all went to watch it... we didn't get the tree put up and i had drivers ed agh that is so boring but i get to see a bunch of my friends and even made some new ones... we were supposed to go to the jail like last week but we didn't get too cuz they were having "shake downs" i know i know it sounds fun but it isn't lol i guess they tear the place apart looking for drugs and weapons n random things the prisoners aren't supposed to have so now we are going this coming saturday n we have our test next monday... agh i'm worried cuz she hasn't gotten the chance to tell us all the answers lol like she said she would urg i'm kinda stressing it but anywho...last wednesday all the reserve cheerleaders had our first practice with our new coach lindsey and guess what WE HAVE TO CHEER FRESHMAN okay so ashley scheduled a meeting with the AD and the principal so when i get in there 8th period i'm already ticked cuz i didn't want the meeting and was just in a bad mood i guess lol so mr. steyer starts talking n i just went off ashley wouldn't even talk and she is the one who wanted the meeting in the first place! urg... so i got it figured out that i would cheer freshman if i could take breaks and such and then i wouldn't have to cheer with the varsity so that was settled... i didn't get to see jason the last time he was home... but anyway just thought i would add that... last friday was the tip off for varisty and reserve had to go for some dumb reason..the varsity really made us feel unwanted cuz as soon as we got there they were like "What are you doing here" but oh well and then ashley just totally deserted me but ya know its Zane Trace i figured i could find SOMEONE lol nope it was totally deserted, well i mean the place was packed but i hardly knew anyone at all so i called Justin Miller and he didn't know who i was! agh i could have screamed i was so mad!!!  well we lost the game and ashley's boyfriend kyle had sprung his ankle and took off his cast that he was supposed to keep on for like 4 weeks just so he could play..what an idiot i would have killed him but he played the whole game! sheesh... well after the game they decided they were going to feed the players and the cheereladers so we all ran from the gym to the cafeteria so we could eat lol it was so much fun then cuz we were all talking about random things and India's little bother said sumthing about him being the waterboy and whne he went into the locker room all of the players were taking off their pants and Jessi goes "you'll be like that when u get older too reed" and amber went into some story about shannon kohn "whipping it out" in the middle of some class and the teacher didn't say anything and i told a story about Hunter taking off his pants in biology and putting them on his desk... so jessi told a story about Shannon Kohn Masterbating... well reed looks up (and u have to realize we are in a cafetorium with all the other cheerleaders n players) and goes "WHATS MASTERBATING"  lol it was soooooo funny so we all died laughing..well then tami came with the T shirts but we didn't have enough so we had an ordeal there but no worries everyone got one! and we went home n there was a reserve/freshman game that saturday but like i said i'm in drivers ed n i couldn't miss it so i missed the freshman game and went to drivers ed in my uniform so i could go straight to the game..i made it there in the first quarter of the reserve game... we lost the freshman game pretty bad and i guess the cheerleaders were having a hard time cuz ashley was in a bad mood and they were all glad that i showed up lol well after i went home kate came over and we put up the tree and then went to rent on sunday it was such a good movie..kate brought this guy whose friends with clark (the guy courtney was making out with during the other movie who is now her boyfriend) kate's guy is named shaun and he's in our drivers ed...he's a sweetheart and kate deserves that so i'm excited for her = ) i'm still single me n bud are close n we have switched class rings on accident cuz we switched in drivers ed like we always do but we always give them back n this tiem class ran late n i just forgot... so yeah but i still don't know if i wanna go back out with him.. but anywho interims come out tomorrow n i'm getting an A in algebra and in Govt and Spanish so i'm excited for that cuz i've been working hard but today i took a day off cuz Jason is leaving for England tomorrow and everyone knows i have a crush on him so i had to see him plus sandy had a luncheon at her house for the girls off of a website i was on for a while so i got to play with all the little kids and see jason lol everytime i see him i wish i was just a little bit older! its very frustrating he got up n came over just for me = ) *sigh* he said he'd bring me sumthing back which excites me... plus i knew we'd only be working on projects in school so it wasn't a big deal i didn't think mom was gonna let me cuz she wanted me to talk to my dad about it but that didn't happen cuz me n dad don't talk lol its sad but it's true! i love him n i just want him to talk but he won't...i won't bore u wiht too much of that kinda talk... we have been having a "PENNY WAR" at school its really confusing Penny's are a point and then other classes can put silver coins which are negative and anyway we have been losing so i am bringing in a BUNCH of penny's tomorrow but i get the pizza party anyway cuz i'm in the council giving it lol... oh and we finally got shirts ordered they are going to be red and black since no one would agree to blue lol stupid Adam (he's the pres.) i keep threatening to impeach him... but anywho we are supposed to get bunches of snow tonight but ya know with as much as they have been talking about it i really doubt we will LOL... oh oh and Shayne asked a girl out...yeah i was just as surprised as you CUZ HE DIDN'T TELL ME that really really hurt my feelings i mean i don't talk to the girl and of course he is like a brother to me at times and i'm never going to think anyone is good enough for him...like i was with logan and kass (who secretly broke up..he never told me but i heard n don't bring it up) idk i just wish he would have cared enough to TELL ME *sigh* oh and i finished Dark Angel and read Fallen Hearts but i finished that one too i'm now on "gates of paradise" i'm almost done with the series lol i'm proud of myself for that lol hmm i think thats pretty much all that has been going on...since i have had drivers ed i haven't made it to quiz bowl practice or meets but i heard we lost to Zane Trace!!!!! i was so dissappointed but thats what u get without having murray. i have a game tomorrow and saturday..i was supposed to go to my aunts on saturday but i have a friggin game urg...oh almost forgot yesterday the sophomore class took a field trip to teh Vocational school... we got to pick 2 classes to go to just to see what it was like...me n brandy took Early Childhood Education first n we made cards with this little girl and i was just acting enthusiastic and i think she thought there was sumthing wrong with me cuz when the groups rotated n i had to go make gingerbread men she took my hand and goes "we are going to make gingerbreadmen OKAY???" lol and walked me to the door n left me..it was kinda funny n then we made gingerbread cookies...decorated them and ate them...then the classes switched n me n brandy went to business and information technology and got to make labels it was kinda cool...we made "TO and From" labels for gifts hehe and then we had lunch and talked about eveyrone's experience but then we went back to school in time for Algebra YAY lol NOT!!! oh well i think i understand it and we didn't have homework..mom got me christmas cards that i have to fill out and hand out soon n i think me n gramma set up a date for our christmas party..i think the 30th i'll get more info out to the ppl that are invited... i still have to get everyones gifts lol i don't care what crystal says i'm getting shayne something lol oh and me n mom have been talking about my 16th birthday party  she wants to have a summer party (my bday is in Feb!!!) lol she wants to have it inside and have everyone come and then strip down into their bathing suits and summer attire and then have sand and palm trees around and have "in the red" play and she wants to have little baby pools and cook out lol its gonna be sweet if we do it that way hehe so i was talkin to logan about his band playins explaining that cody offered to have his band "federal offense" play but i didn't like them that much..of course i didn't know their drummer was sitting right behind me lol he just shook it off cuz he knew it wasn't cuz i didn't like him but his g/f got ticked n yelled at me but i don't care lol i'm not afraid of her...hmm yeah well tuesday show choir had a concert i thought we did pretty good but poor brandy n india had to dance alone lol cody slipped on monday and fell on ice and had to go to the hospital with a concussion and then india's partner was throwing up so they swung dance alone lol n i about flew off the stage and courtneys' boyfriend saw n made fun of me lol cuz he came to surprise her lol i miss haveing a boyfriend *sigh* anyway my brother n sister are due home any minute so i'm gonna go everyone have a nice holiday if i don't get to write agian before then = ) love ya all.  

P.S. sorry about the music not working lol xanga is a music sucker *scowl* oh and by the way brandy u might be the iocn queen but i got a rent icon before you so take that hehe

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